I am busy working on my goals for the year ahead today. We’re not calling them New Year’s resolutions, mainly because I’ve yet to keep a single one of those. But I do have a number of things I am determined to work on in the coming weeks/months and my Dom is going to help me.
I’ve always been a very positive person, but over the last few years my self confidence has taken a bit of a battering, both personally & professionally. I’ve been on a treadmill standing still for far too long. I’ve sat here & wished things could be different, but done very little to make them different. What’s that quote.. “the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over & over again, but expecting different results?” Well that would be me, with less of the actual doing, and more of the thinking of doing.
I think part of the problem is I’m not accountable to anybody, or at least I wasn’t, before I met my Dom. He simply won’t allow me to be mediocre, he expects & deserves the very best I can be, as a woman & as a submissive. But he doesn’t merely tell me to do better, he shows me how. He doesn’t criticise when I fall down, he picks me up & helps me get back on track. He won’t look at my goals, and the ones he sets for me, and say “great, good luck, off you go & do it”. Instead he will help me break them down, help me visualise success, monitor my progress & keep me on track.
I can’t tell you how unbelievably positive this all makes me feel. I know it might be tough at times, but I know that I can actually achieve the things I want to achieve, if I work hard enough at it. Knowing I will disappoint Sir if I don’t is going to be a great motivator for me. Part of my visualising success will be seeing how pleased & proud it makes him. I won’t be doing things just for me any more, I’ll be doing them for him too.
Best of all, I don’t have to do it alone.